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Letting Go.

Letting go doesn’t mean we don’t care. Letting go doesn’t mean we shut down. Letting go means we stop trying to force outcomes and make people behave. It means we give up resistance to the way things are, for the moment. It means we stop trying to do the impossible–controlling that which we cannot–and instead, focus on what is possible.

Hope

It's been a pretty nostalgic semester break, as I had to pass/visit places that brings back vivid memories from the painful past. It still hurts, i admit. And sometimes, I reckon, telling myself that I'm strong and that I'm able to go through this isn't enough. Inside, I feel like such a flub or so weak and I hate how belittle I seemed to myself. I just need to do something about this! But how? what?

There are times I feel like Davy Jones. Cutting my heart out putting it into a jar so I won't feel all this hurt and pain anymore. But then again why should I do that when he can simply just not think about it and move on? You're selfish. All you think about it yourself. Whenever you feel sad and down that's when you need me to lean on. And when you think you're strong enough, and see me all weak and in pain you can just not care about me. WTF man? I'm sick of this. And it's time for me to cut you out. I've been telling myself over and over again, giving excuses for you, telling myself that someday you'll come around, someday you'll change, you'll see how strong what we had between us and that'll guide you through this dark period as a light. But no. Because the more of me giving in, the more further i'm pushed away into the darkness. 


This just can't go on this way. I need an ultimatum.

Vain

Yeah more vain photos this semester break! :D

Keep Moving

Current Status

This Was How I Met You.

Siblings

Dear Siblings,
YOU ARE MY SOULLLLLLLLLLL! AHAHAHA! ee. no.. you’re ma siblings and i love you guys:) even though sometimes.. we fight, we hit each other (not that hard okay).. we shout!!! WARGHHH! LIKE GORILLAS! ahaha. sometimes like monkey too. ahaha. wait. i think im the only one who act like one. darn!
anyways, thanks for being there when i need one. i remember theres this one scene when i was small.. i think when i was 5? ahahaha. i was teaching you, ryan.. your maths i think. easy maths ==. then right you didnt wanna study. ahahaha. then i cried and said ‘YOU DONT CARE FOR ME?’. then i cried. HAHAHAHAH! but wait. i not yet finish my story. then ryan came to me and cried and say.. ‘please dont cry kakak. i love you’. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!:D I love you ryan. that memory always cheer me up when im down. AHAHAH! Seriously:) without you, ill die. you’re like a legs you know. ahaha. without you, i cant walk.
KAKAK IVA AISHAH HARRIS MARSOH! yuhhuuuuu. i wonder if you’re reading this. cant you see i bold you name? how nice of me heh? ahahaha. i love you till the day i die. wait. even when im dead, i’ll still love you no matter what. you’re like my hand, without you, i cant touch or feel anything. i mean.. hands right. without you, i cant write or draw. something like that. i know i suck at expressing and you’re good at it. but who cares right? ahahaha. i love you so much.
to you both, without you guys right.. its like..writing but with no pen and paper. get me? OH GOD! i hope what i type make sense. ahaha:) anyway, i love you guys. love me back BA! ahahaha. :D i love you
oh! to all my closest relative, i love ya guys too!:D will never forget you. thank you for everything. MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHH!:D xoxo.
from-NINA MARIYAH HARRIS MARSOH!

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Googled my name to see my sister blogging about me. Im not sure when was this though. But yeah. How sweet :') I miss my family a lot! Cant wait for Friday to come <3

Sometimes Kids Have The Right Answer

The Day We Had Anatomy

Quote

"Read for escape, read for adventure, read for romance, but read the great writers. You will find to your delight that they are easier and more joy to read than the second-rate ones. They touch your imagination and your deepest yearnings, and when your imagination is stirred it can lead you down paths you never dreamed you would travel. If you read great language you will develop, without your realizing it, an apprecation of excellence that can shape your life." 

Excerpt from "Books I Read When I Was Young: Favorite Books of Famous People" by Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis

One of the reasons I love reading.

Proximity

Extracted from Elfiena's Blog.

Take a second and think about the one thing that promotes attraction the most. I’ll give you a hint. The answer is not physical looks, wealth, having things in common, or even the person’s personality. I know, it’s crazy right? The answer is actually proximity. Study after study finds that most people tend to become attracted to people who are physically close to them. The theory is called the mere exposure effect, and it states that we tend to become attracted to a novel stimuli if it was repeated over and over again. I am sure you once saw a very attractive person who caught your attention while passing by your car, then you never saw him/her again. Why do most people forget about that very attractive person a few days later? Simply because they never see that person again. If the stimuli wasn’t reinforced we tend to forget about it even if we liked it. It really is true. Just talking to someone a lot can do so much. You may not even see it coming. But If you spend a considerable amount of time with someone, you could be friends one day, and before you know it, you’ve completely fallen head over heals in love with each other. Maybe this has happened to you. You can’t fight it, but why would you want to? It’s a beautiful thing, really.