Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas everyone! 

Though technically, its not christmas yet but its 15 more minutes to go! So i think by the time i post this up would definitely be pass midnight. 

So i've been bumping into Mel a whole lot these past few days! Technically almost everyday! Haha. But then again, Kk is kinda small. You're bound to bump into someone you know anyways. 

SO! What have i been up to? The last time i updated, was when i went for dessers with Amrita! We ordered like several desserts at a time and tried each of them :D Then we went and chill at the beach with some fruit juice and keropok lekor. Hahaha. The kk life!

Then the next day (friday) i went out and catch up with Sarah, Rachel & Debs. It's been super duper long since i've hung out with them! The last time was... back in highschool! Which was like.. 2 years ago? Dayuuum. But it felt so good hanging out with them again! Hahah. 

And then on Saturday, i brought Amrita to the KKSplashArtFestival that was going on in the museum. She became the Henna model hahaha. The japenese tourists were all so amused! It was good to know that she was having fun though. Haha. 

So anyways, i wanted to blog on things that i've learnt this year. Just some random venting out just cause i felt like it. 2012, was the year that i can honestly admit was a terrible year. Because it was the year that i fell what felt like pit bottom or rock bottom of the earth or life or universe. It was just terrible! But i bumped into this quote recently saying Falling down. Thats when we do most of our growing up. I learnt so much from this year. On friendship, on life, on relationships and people and also myself. Trust is very important for me. And once it's broken, it will never be the same again. Sure i forgive that person, but i dont think i'll look at that person the same way again. There are times when i feel like im such a parasite. I hop from one host to another but at the same time im able to also be by myself. Sometimes i think im weird. Haha. 

But then again, being weird is good i guess. It shows that you're being yourself. And that it also means you're limited edition! Haha. Cause you're out of normal. HAHA. Heck, what am i crapping about? -.- Dont mind me. 

I've learnt that people change. And usually, it's always to the bad side of things. And being the person to see on the both sides of the person, it's sad to see how a person can change so much until he/she becomes a person u barely know and most of the time, into a person they told u they will never be. But then again, they may or may not realize and change back to their original being or probably they've just turned into someone they have been all along its just that you couldnt see that part of them because you choose to see the good side of them all the time. I also learnt that family is everything. No matter what, they're always be by your side ... or back. Haha.

In times of your worst, that's when you find out who your real friends are.

Im glad to know there are people i can count on :') 

Entirely grateful!

100 Tips About Life, People & Happiness

1. True wisdom and insight is always free.
2. Give your power over to no one.
3. Going into the unknown is how you expand what is known.
4. Get a library card.
5. Spend more time around people that both challenge and respect you.
6. Remain skeptical forever.
7. Fight for what matters.
8. There is a method that works. Find it.
9. Join a movement.
10. Drink your coffee black.
11. Never let anyone photoshop a picture of you. It creates a false sense of self-confidence.
12. Read more. Especially things you disagree with.
13. Get used to feeling stupid. It’s a sign of growth.
14. It’s easy for people to talk a good game, so watch how they behave instead.
15. Learn something from everyone.
16. Find things that inspire you and pursue them, even if there’s no money in it.
17. Starve if you have to, for as long as you need to.
18. Survive on a little just to prove you can do it.
19. Get one big success at an early age. It’ll help build your confidence for bigger things.
20. Do what you say you’ll do. No one is reliable anymore.
21. Be comfortable with abandonment, even of parts of your identity.
22. Learn a new language.
23. Eat more protein.
24. Keep people around you that will tell you the truth.
25. Genius gets you nowhere. Execution is everything.
26. If given the choice of equity or cash, always take cash.
27. Meet new people as often as possible. Offer to help them.
28. Don’t discriminate. Connect anyone in your network to anyone else.
29. If you can’t do a pull-up, you have a problem.
30. Nobody likes a know-it-all.
31. Get a passport. Fill it up with stamps no one has ever seen.
32. Quit your horrible job.
33. Read biographies. It’s like having access to the best mentors in history.
34. Go to bed, and wake up, early. No one will bother you, letting your best work emerge.
35. Scare yourself a little bit every day. It will expand your inner map.
36. Learn to climb trees.
37. Don’t buy a lot of stuff, and only buy the stuff you really love.
38. Be humble and curious.
39. Twitter followers don’t keep you warm at night.
40. Be as useful as you can in as many circumstances as possible.
41. Show up.
42. Repeat people’s names when you meet them.
43. Turn internet access off your phone. Wifi is fine.
44. Get a deck of Oblique Strategies cards. Use them.
45. Make your home a place where you feel safe.
46. Take people up on bets. Make more bets yourself.
47. Take cold showers. They’re better than coffee.
48. Learn to enjoy hunger.
49. Make everything either shorter, or longer, than it needs to be.
50. Always remember those who helped you. Deliver two or three times as much value back.
51. But also, help people who have never helped you, and can’t.
52. When you know that pain is temporary, it affects all of your decisions.
53. Get a tattoo. Don’t worry about regret.
54. Commit to things, regularly, that are far beyond your ability.
55. Meet with friends more often than you think you have to.
56. Learn to meditate. Go on a retreat if you have to.
57. Your stories are both more and less interesting than you think.
58. Learn to really listen.
59. Walk more.
60. Ugly is just a step on the way to beautiful.
61. Get to know your neighbours.
62. Don’t take anything personally, ever.
63. Consider avoiding school. Go to lots of conferences instead.
64. As soon as you can, buy some art.
65. Apologize more than you need to.
66. Find out if there will be food there.
67. A good haircut changes everything.
68. Read Man’s Search For Meaning.
69. Say no to projects you don’t care about.
70. Do things that are uncool. Later on, they usually end up becoming cool anyway.
71. Find your voice.
72. Have some manners.
73. Learn to play chess, go, and bridge. They’ll keep you from going senile.
74. Learn about the Tetrapharmakos.
75. Find ways to cheat the system– just don’t cheat people.
76. Be like Jesus, not like his followers. (This applies to all of them.)
77. At least once, date someone that’s out of your league.
78. Examine your jealousy. You’ll learn a lot about yourself.
79. Good connections are about people, not social networks.
80. Address small problems. They will become big problems.
81. Dress like a cooler version of yourself.
82. Yes, there is such a thing as bad press.
83. Add “adventurer” to your Twitter bio. Then, become one.
84. If the internet is the best thing in your life, you have a serious problem.
85. Give away your best work for free.
86. Find mentors. Just don’t call them that.
87. Actually write on your blog. Nobody cares if it’s hard.
88. Download Freedom. Use it for an hour every day.
89. Join a gym. Lift the heaviest you can. (This applies to girls too.)
90. Do some freewriting. It helps you think things through.
91. When you’re having supper with rich people, pick up the cheque.
92. Learn how to speak in public.
93. If you see someone who needs help, stop asking yourself if they need help. Instead, just help.
94. Bring a bottle of wine.
95. The best conversations are had side by side, not one in front of the other.
96. Protect your hearing. Trust me.
97. Do what’s most important first thing in the morning, before you check email.
98. Everyone feels like they’re not good enough. It’s not just you.
99. Courage is a learned skill.
100. Go to Iceland. It’s worth it.

How a worm takes flight

A popular parable recounts how a boy came across a butterfly struggling in its cocoon. In his innocence, the lad tried to help the bug by tearing open it's old pupal skin. And the butterfly emerged.. Only to die prematurely, due to its stunted wings. The lesson here is that the butterfly by its nature is required to struggle, which helps it develop it's wings as an essential part of its growth and survival. So it is with life. Often, the struggles we face now only serve to strengthen us. So that when our time comes, we can fly.

Miss Santa

So I've had this thought of sending Christmas greeting cards to dear friends of mine who won't be coming home for Christmas this year. Sealed and sent on today's pretty date! 20.12.2012!

This year has got so many pretty dates! Don't you think so? Oh! And I've also help mummy in mailing her Christmas card to aunty Iva. Haha feels weird because it feels like I'm calling and writing to myself. Anywho! I'm updating this with my phone. The blogger app for iPhone has updated itself and it looks pretty user friendly in comparing to the precious user interface. I've realized I've been spending a whole week slogging off at home hahah. Am an ultimate dead slug! Quite a number of people are back for Christmas while the rest who aren't are celebrating with their families overseas. Those whose family aren't going over to their place nor the fact that they're coming home, I just had the sudden urge to play miss Santa and drop a little something to them. Yes I sexily climbed down the chimney :p and enjoyed my cookies and milk. Cause I like cookies and milk. :p hahahah. Okay enough with the nonsense.

Guess who's back home as well! A childhood friend of mine, Amrita who is spending Christmas over at kk! Amritas staying over at California, USA. And it's been four years since I've last seen her! So much to update each other on! I better get going. I'm supposed to shower and get ready. Bringing Amrita out tonight. More updates ! And I know I've sort of broke my promise on updating everyday if possible. Hahahaha. So much for aiming so high eh?

Ash brown

The truth is that everyone is bored, and when they are, they devote themselves to cultivating habits. Mine just so happens to be : taking photos of myself. Hahaha

I believe in primping at leisure and wearing a lipstick. I believe happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.

So first thing i did on my holiday's to do list was dyed my hair! :D And yes i've dyed my hair for the first time! :D Was pretty excited. Though i think the color is quite subtle and natural. Didnt want to go for the extreme colors. Dyed my hair ash brown as titled for this post :) As the two vain photos i've posted was post-dyed hair moments. Hahaha. Was super excited that i decided to primp myself with a little heart 2 heart lippie and some nude eyeshadows and voila. Selfies moment time!

Though coming to think about it, I feel like highlighting my hair to bring out the colors more. But then again, i dont know if im doing too much. Hmm.. So that's still under consideration!

Anywho, was supposed to bake Caramel Macaroons on the 12/12/12 but then something came up and hence didnt get to bake them :( Went to renew my passport instead because it just so happens that everyone is free then and so off we went to renew our passport.

As for today? Spent my time watching New Girl and driving around. As well as working as my mom and dad's PA. Uhhuh. For BOTH. Imagine how tiring and mentally exhausting it is! But hey! I ain't complaining. I like the work :D haha well at least it's better than sitting around doing nothing! Though day by day i cant stop thinking about the 21st december though :/ (nope it hasnt nothing to do with the end of the world shit) 

Oh and this would be totally random and irrelevant to my ash brown post (LOL) but if you dear readers ever need any advice or opinions or anything of that sort, do check out my friends blog. Advice & Glitters  She gives quite good advices in my opinion. And lots of beauty tips as well for you girls out there :) Just sharing the news around. So I guess that's it for today. Will be updating the blog more and revamping its looks next!

Goodnight everyone! :)

Home!

So here i am writing in this blog just as promised! :D (That is, after finally completed with the unpacking, catching up with the parentals and le siblings) So much to type about! For once, it was a relieved though! Why? Because there was no indian dude sitting beside me on the plane. Have i blogged about it before? Wait... I think I've not right? Okay okay. Story time!

So most of the time whether its flying to kl from kk or from kl to kk, there'd always be an indian dude sitting beside me. Either he's indian or he's dark, big and hairy 0.0 (creeeek creeeeeek) I KNOW!!! There was once, the big hairy and dark dude ate his meal like super fast til he spilled a bit of his food towards my side. And he literally took up most of my space so i ended up sitting at the very edge of my seat! Let me emphasize on how uncomfortable it was! VERY UNCOMFORTABLE. Not to mentioned that he dropped his aluminium foil too! The one that covers the food tray? Yeaah -.- Oh! and there was also a big chinese dude sitting beside him who dont really look chinese (0.o) .. well yeah, throughout the whole journey he was snoring pretty loudly. Couldnt sleep or do anything! Because

1. The big hairy dude took up most of my space
2. The big chinese dude was snoring pretty loud.

But at least this time, on the way back to kk. it was both girls :) So i was pretty happy with the spacious space i had for myself on the plane. Not that spacious but at least in comparing with the dude.... It's definitely more spacious. That's for a short update on my trip back home on the plane. I'm pretty tired so i'll go hit the sack now. Toodles!

(Just realized this wasnt post up. And instead was saved as draft -.- )

Hallelujah!

GUESS WHO'S DONE WITH FINALS?????

:D :D :D :D :D


Now that I finally have time for myself!
Things to do for December:

1. Revamp and edit this blog. To promise myself to update everyday or probably do vlogs and talk about random things basically out of the ordinary for a the whole month of December. Though i highly doubt i'll do so. But nevertheless, I should at least try my very best in doing it right? For a change? Hahah. I've been reading and hopping on Malaysian bloggers lately and reading their blog and seeing how pretty it is and stuffs kind of sparked up the old flames in blogging i guess. Hahah.

2. Take lots of photos! Pretty photos mind you for fun. I realized that i've not had a proper vain picture in a while. All the selfies i have with me are all taken from my phones front camera or photobooth and as you know the quality is.. so so. Hahah. Time to have a nice facebook profile picture! Or twitter picture or whatever display picture there is to be put/changed!

3. Read. This whole time I've noticed that i have lots of unread novels with me. HAHAH. Temptations in collecting and reading books and magazines. Sigh. It's time to finally read them and proudly show them off on my bookshelf in the "Read" section :D

4. Tv series & movies. Now that i am finally free, i've promised myself to start on watching grey's anatomy and how i met your mother on marathon (yes on marathon!) from season 1 to the current episode. (Think i can do it?) Also! To finish my skins and all the current tv shows i'm watching. Gossip girl is about to end though. I think by the end of december it'll be done :( Goodbye to my favorite highschool tv series. I've been faithful to gossip girl ever since... the end of form 3 i think. When either Anna or Iris made me copy it to my external hard disk and i was hooked ever since!

5. To have a roadtrip around Sabah. It's been a while since I've last visit Tawau, Sandakan, Lahad Datu, Kota Belud, Keningau or even Ranau. Not to mention Kudat too! It's time to take a few days off and go around since the siblings are off on holidays anyways :)

6. Island hopping! OMG! I wanna go to Sapi island! Mamutik! And all the other islands except for Manukan of course. Sad to say that i always find myself ending up in Manukan -.- Not that i chose to go there but the people i go island with tend to always pick manukan -.- Oh wells. Hahah. I'd wanna take up diving license too this December! Hopefully i'll be rajin enough to get my ass off and attend lessons.

7. Bake bake bake (omnomnomnom). Its been a while since I've last baked! And i miss it! :( Time to get down in the kitchen and host that BBQ party i've always wanted to do ever since mummy and daddy got the new BBQ stove :D And a tea party and garden party too! :)


That is all that i've had in mind so far. Oh! And i will most probably dye my hair :D Yep! For the first time :D Any suggestions on what color to dye to though? Hit it up on the comment! I'm still mentally drained out. Feel so lazy to do anything and i actually wanted to sleep the moment i reach home but when i got to my room i didnt feel so sleepy anymore. Oh and it's raining heavily now! With all the thunders and lightning :/ I hope it wont be tomorrow evening or it'll be a very bumpy ride back home!


Last but not least, happy holidays dear chirons!

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It’s a good feeling to be excited for the future and proud of your past. To speak to someone new and genuinely impress them. To leave something better than it was before. To be charming just by being yourself.

Glitter & Gold

It's been such a long time since i've last answered one! And since i'm taking a break from working on the reflective journal, i decided to spend time on doing this :)

• 1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
• Of course they did. To them, family is everything :)
• 2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
• Haha. Sorry but.. nah.
• 3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
• Just last night. Haha!
• 4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
• Yeah. If they look nice. Haha or if they smiled first.
• 5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
• Nope
• 6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
• Yep
• 7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
• Esprit tank top and nike shorts. Being cosy in my home clothes yaww!
• 8. How often do you listen to music?
• Everyday.
• 9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
• Jeans! Never really like sweats.
• 10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?
• Do you mean after? 
• 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
• At times, i find myself a little bit of both. Haha
• 12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
• Yep!
• 13. What about ‘R’?
• Yep!
• 14. Can you drive a stick shift?
• Yep :)
• 15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
• Well if its the people whom i trust and care about then yes!
• 16. Are you going out of town soon?
• Yep
• 17. When was the last time you cried?
• I... can't remember. Oh!! Last last week. Hahaha
• 18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
• Yep
• 19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
• Prolly to a lighter shade of brown :)
• 20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
• Probably not everything.. but yeah.
• 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
• This zits that seems to be popping up!! GRRR. Damn you exams!
• 22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
• Yeah at times.
• 23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
• Uhhh.. 
• 24. What are you sitting on right now?
• A chair? Lol
• 25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
• Sadly.. nope :( hahahahaa
• 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
• Yeeeep
• 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
• My sister. Haha
• 28. Do you get a lot of colds?
• Nope
• 29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
• From an esprit shop in town.
• 30. Does anyone hate you?
• I dont know..
• 31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
• Nope. Haha
• 32. Do you like watching scary movies?
• Yeah sometimes. Im very mood dependent. Hahaha
• 33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
• Used to!
• 34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
• None. Haha. Im grateful for all the things that happened that made me who i am today.
• 35. Did you have a dream last night?
• I think i did. i cant remember.
• 36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
• Just now :)
• 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
• I hope so!! I want to. HAHAH.
• 38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
• Im not sure..
• 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
• Maybe? :D
• 40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
• Yeah i did. Was sort of productive. Proud of myself for having to reach 11 week of my reflective journal! 
• 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
• Nope
• 42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
• Yeah. Haha
• 43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
• Yep
• 44. What’s the best part about school?
• FRIENDS! And crazy epic moments together.
• 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
• Yep
• 46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
• Yeah! Fav thing to do. HAHA
• 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
• Yeah at times.
• 48. Were you single over the last summer?
• Yeaah. Haha
• 49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
• Nope.
• 50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
• My journal
• 51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
• Nope why would i hate him?
• 52. Are you nice to everyone?
• I think so... Hahahah why dont u ask them? :D
• 53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
• HELL YEAH! OMGGG
• 54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
• Of course. haha
• 55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
• I think so. Hahaha but then again i dont think so. Hahaha
• 56. Do you think you like someone?
• I think so.. ahahha
• 57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
• Yes
• 58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
• Theyre both equally the same to me
• 59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
• Hmmm lets seee..... Yeah
• 60. Do you hate anyone?
• Nope
• 61. How’s your heart?
• Beating at a regular pace. Hahah.
• 62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
• Sort of. I dont hate talking about it, but i would only talk to certain people about it.
• 63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
• Yeah.
• 64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
• Ive no idea. 
• 65. Are your toenails painted pink?
• Nope
• 66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
• I hope not
• 67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
• It depends.
• 68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
• NO ahha
• 69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
• My grandpa :D
• 70. How do you look right now?
• How someone would look like being cosy at home. Haha
• 71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
• Yeah.
• 72. Can you commit to one person?
• Yeah
• 73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
• Yeah sort of.
• 74. Have you ever felt replaced?
• Yeah
• 75. Did you wake up cranky?
• Today? Nope. haha
• 76. Are you a jealous person?
• It depends on what is there to be jealous about. Haha
• 77. Are relationships ever worth it?
• Yeah
• 78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
• Im not sure if i should. Still thinking about it though.
• 79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
• Yeah :)
• 80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
• STUDY!
• 81. Last person you cried in front of?
• My family. Haha
• 82. Is there someone you will never forget?
• Yep. But then again i dont forget people. 
• 83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
• Im not sure :/
• 84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
• Talking and having fun with them. Hahaha.
• 85. Are you over your past?
• Yeah.. Its time for a brand new start
• 86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
• Yeah
• 87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
• Yeah
• 88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
• Yeah but that doesnt mean i'd wanna go back into a relationship with him :P
• 89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
• By this i would think you meant kiss on the lips by a non family member? Hahaha. Nope i wont.
• 90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
• i... dont think so
• 91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
• Hope so! :D Fingers crossed?
• 92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
• Yeah
• 93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
• NO! hahaha
• 94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
• This year? Nope
• 95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
• Yeah but then i figured it wouldnt work out.
• 96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
• Yeaaaah ;)
• 97. Who do you have texts from?
• People :D
• 98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
• I'd be like "oh okay. cool :) wish you all the best then! "
• 99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
• Yeah by a few months. hahaa
• 100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
• My cousin ;)