TUMBLR IS THE NEW PLACE!

Tumblr is seriously fucking better.

I guess its goodbye blogger.

Tumblr!

Yes i have to agree when ika said tumblr is much better than blogger. It is indeed true. Blogger's okay but tumblr's faster, easier and more convenient. I gotta say. Hehe. I made one.

here

I'm still gonna keep this blogger though:)

Apple or Pear-shaped?

Are You Apple-Shaped or Pear-Shaped?

Are you apple-shaped or pear-shaped? Meaning, do you carry your weight more in your stomach or in your hips?Here are some tips for how to dress for your body type, either way:

Pear shaped women might want to wear:
Wide leg pants
A-line skirts
Shirts with full sleeves
Shirts/dresses with empire waists

Whereas apple chicks look best in:
Tunics
Floaty trousers and shirts
Skirts with high waistlines
Heeled shoes
Proper sizing to avoid muffin tops

Hiatus?

As you can see, my blog's seriously not updated anymore. I've been busy and lazy at the same time. So i guess i'm only gonna post up stuffs whwnever i feel like it. Haha. Tomorrow i'm off for a reflexeology moment:) And next week's trial. Spm's coming soon. Sigh. I'm gonna hit the sheets now. Sorry bloggy. I'll come for you when the time is right okay?:)

I have changed my MSN to ivaaishah@live.com :) The paperloove got hacked i think. Sigh. So today was the last day of school. Its the holidays next week! Plans? Not much. Probably just a little shopping here and there and study! Cause the week after that would be trials. Damnit. Today we had another seminar on Biology by a teacher from all saints.

MySpace Presents: The Fit featuring Fergie

That's the brand of the bag Luqman gave Nina. Lucky her. Haha.

Haunted by horror.

By LINDA DEUTSCH

Manson ‘family’ members who are free still haunted by the murders 40 years ago.

FORTY years ago, they were kids. Vulnerable, alienated, running away from a world wracked by war and rebellion. They turned to a cult leader for love and wound up tied to a web of unimaginable evil.

They were part of Charles Manson’s “family” and now, on the brink of old age, they are the haunted.

“I never have a day go by that I don’t think about it, especially about the victims,” says Barbara Hoyt, who was 17 the summer of the Sharon Tate-LaBianca murders. “I’ve long ago accepted the fact it will never go away.”

The ones who aren’t in prison are scattered across the United States. Some live under assumed names to hide their past from friends and business associates. Some have undergone surgery to remove the X that Manson ordered them to carve on their foreheads, showing they were “X-ed” out of society. Some live with endless regret.

Those who escaped taking part in the spasm of terror that snuffed out at least nine lives would seem to be lucky. But their lives have been linked forever to one of the craziest mass murders in history.

Cold-blooded killer: Charles Manson being escorted by deputy sheriffs on his way to court in Los Angeles, after being charged with murder-conspiracy in the Tate-LaBianca slayings, in this Aug 20, 1970 filepic.

“Manson made a lot of victims besides the ones he killed,” said Catherine Share, who once lived with the Manson Family under the nickname “Gypsy”.

“He destroyed lives. There are people sitting in prison who wouldn’t be there except for him. He took all of our lives.”

It was 1969, the summer of the first moon landing. War was raging in Vietnam. Hippies were in the streets of San Francisco, the last bastion of the waning counterculture movement.

For many, that summer is remembered for one thing – the most shocking celebrity murders to ever hit Los Angeles. Mention of the Sharon Tate murders or the name Manson four decades later is enough to make people shudder.

On the morning of Aug 9, a housekeeper ran screaming from a home in lush Benedict Canyon. She had discovered a scene of unspeakable carnage. Five bodies were scattered around the estate.

The most famous, actress Sharon Tate, 26, the pregnant wife of director Roman Polanski, had been stabbed multiple times. But there were four others that day and two more the next.

Abigail Folger, 25, heiress to a coffee fortune; Jay Sebring, 35, celebrity hair stylist; Voyteck Frykowski, 32, a Polish film director and Steven Parent, 18, friend of the caretaker, were found stabbed or shot in a bloody scene.

On the front door the victims’ blood was used to scrawl the words, “Death to Pigs”.

The city was thrown into a state of fear. If that was not enough, a similar murder scene was discovered the next night.

Wealthy grocer Leno La Bianca, 44, and his wife Rosemary, 38, were found stabbed to death in their home across town. A killer had carved the word “WAR” on Leno La Bianca’s body. The words “Helter Skelter” were written in blood on the refrigerator.

“These murders were probably the most bizarre in the recorded annals of American crime,” said Vincent Bugliosi, the former deputy district attorney who prosecuted the killers and wrote the book, Helter Skelter.

It would be more than three months before the name Charles Manson was linked to the crimes. And then the story became even weirder.

Victims of a conman

The discovery of Manson’s clan living in a high desert commune opened up the astounding story of an ex-convict who had gathered young people into a cult and ordered them to kill.

His reasons still remain a subject of debate. Some say he wanted to foment a race war; others say it was senseless.

“It was a real-life horror story,” recalled Stephen Kay, who also prosecuted the Manson Family. “Manson is the real-life Freddie Kruger.”

The former prosecutors worry that Manson, 74, is becoming a folk hero to a new generation. He is the subject of several websites, and Manson souvenirs are sold online.

“Evil has its lure and Manson has become a metaphor for evil,” said Bugliosi.

Those cult members lucky enough not to have killed for Manson on Aug 9-10, 1969, have spent decades trying to bury their past and free themselves from his grasp.

Some never succeeded. Sandra Good and Lynette “Squeaky” Fromme committed crimes later that they said were for Manson and went to federal prison.

When Good, 65, was paroled she moved near the maximum security prison that holds Manson, reportedly so she could “feel his vibes”. Fromme, 60, is due for parole this summer after serving 33 years for the attempted assassination of President Gerald Ford.

In 1969, there were perhaps 30 of them, a ragtag band of runaways and dropouts living on a movie ranch in the San Fernando Valley, all loyal to a shaggy-haired con man who preached a gospel of violence.

Five of the “family” members and Manson are in prison for the infamous Tate-LaBianca murders. Three are in prison for others crimes and two have been released.

Those who are free are still trying to sort out how they fell under his spell and how they came so close to one of the worst crimes of the 20th century. This is the anniversary of their nightmare.

They were very young when they found Manson – or he found them. Some were just 14. Others were in their late teens and early 20s.

“We were just a bunch of kids looking for love and attention and a different way to live,” recalls Share, 66, who muses how she might have been a lawyer or journalist had she never met Manson. “He was everything to us. He was a con, a manipulator of the worst kind.”

Hoyt was a 17-year-old who had left home after an argument with her father. She was sitting under a tree eating her lunch when a group of Manson followers came along in a van and asked her to go with them. They went to a house in the San Fernando Valley.

“I met Charlie the next morning,” she said. “He took me for a motorcycle ride and we went for doughnuts. He was very nice. I thought he was pretty neat.”

She said she was told by others of Manson’s prediction of a race war that would destroy all but his followers who would go to the desert to live in a bottomless pit until it was safe for them to emerge and take over the world. She said she didn’t believe much of it, but they were fixing up dune buggies for their escape and it was fun.

Hoyt and Share eluded being tapped for the Tate-LaBianca murders for different reasons.

“I was very young and I hadn’t been there very long,” said Hoyt. Others had joined the family long before she had and had been subject to Manson’s “deprogramming”, which included group sex and LSD trips.

“I wasn’t as dead in the head as others. He asked me one time if I could kill and I said if someone asked me I would talk my way out of it. There were other people willing to do it.”

Share said she was never asked, partly because she was older. But there was another reason: an extra 9kg that would have made it difficult for her to climb through windows.

“Let me tell you,” she said, “I was just short of murdering for him. If he had told me to get some black clothes and get in a car, I would have.”

Struggle for normalcy

The two women, who are not in touch with each other, have struggled back to normalcy. Share became pregnant while living at Spahn Ranch and has a grown son who served in the US Marines. She declines to identify the father but said it was not Manson or any other notorious cult figure.

She went to prison for five years for involvement in a Manson Family robbery and later did more time for credit card fraud. She said the time in prison helped her recover and she became a Christian. Some of those in prison also have embraced Christianity.

Share went into retail sales and has just finished a book on her experiences with the Manson Family.

Hoyt went to college and became a nurse and is proud of her accomplishments.

“I raised my daughter; I have my own home and I’ve had some vacations,” she said. But memories haunt her and she doesn’t reveal where she’s living.

“People freak out when they find out about my past,” she said.

She keeps track of the Manson Family members in prison and writes letters urging that they never be released.

Share is more sympathetic to those who were convicted. Susan Atkins, 61, who is dying of brain cancer and had a leg amputated, has been turned down for compassionate release and has a parole hearing coming up in September. Leslie Van Houten, 59, and Patricia Krenwinkel, 61, convicted with her, remain in prison for life as does Charles “Tex” Watson, 63, another of the killers.

“Everyone wants to make them monsters,” said Share. “They weren’t monsters. They did a monstrous thing and now they’re older people and they’re not monsters anymore. None of those people ever would have been violent if it weren’t for Manson.” – AP

Linda Deutsch covered the Sharon Tate-LaBianca murders and the Manson trial for The Associated Press.

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It is said that 'no man is an island'. Personally, i think that that saying is absolutely true. Over time immemorial, man has craved for companionship from his fellow man. It is one of our basest instincts, one dating back to the dawn of mankind. This need for companionship has become ingrained in the human psyche. With the passing of millennia, we have become so dependent on this companionship that we simply cannot survive without it. In the modern context, our friends provide us with the aforesaid companionship that we so crave.

What, one might ask, constitutes a true friend? The emphasis is on the word ;true'. Is a true friend someone who you say hello to every morning? Or is it someone who does you favors when you need them? Or is there something more; a connection that is more profound? the answer to the latter is definitely 'yes'.

Friends, in the purest sense, are one's soul mates. It sounds cliched i know, but i truly believe that it is so. True friends understand each others' needs and emotions. This understanding leads to mutual respect to each other. I also believe that mutual respect is a prerequisite for all good friendships. It is this mutual that friends have for each other that leads them to care for one another whilst respecting their respective personal space and privacy. That is why when i say 'soul mate', i mean that friends have an instinctive understanding, an 'emotional compass' if you will, of their friends' feelings.

In the same vein, friends are people with whom one can just be oneself. With friends, there is no need for false pretences or facades. A true friend is someone who knows about you and loves you just the same. As the saying goes 'love is blind, but friendship closes one eye'. This simply means that although friends see our faults and shortcomings, they choose to look past them to see only our positive traits. Thus, it does not matter if you have a host of annoying habits, or are not good-looking, or even if you are singularly untalented in everything you do. A true friend loves you simply for being yourself. Nothing more and nothing less.

Friends are people who you can trust implicitly. Have you ever told someone you deepest, darkest secrets only to have them go out and tell others? It hurts, doesn't it? What is worse, your secrets come back to you through the grapevine. That, most emphatically, is not what true friendship is about. A true friend will always keep your secrets, no matter how juicy they are and no matter how much they want to share them with others. For that reason, we trust our friends enough to pour out our feelings and thoughts to them, all the while knowing that they are in safe hands.

Ever heard the expression 'laugh and the world laughs with you, cry and you cry alone'? It is, sadly, very much a norm in today's hypocritical and callous society. But, every cloud has a silver lining. In this case, the 'silver lining' comes in the form of our friends. Friends are always there when we need them. Whether we need someone to celebrate with, or we need a shoulder to cry on, they are always available. When we are down in the dumps and discouraged, they become our mainstays to help us to keep our heads above the proverbial water. In a way, friends are like our personal cheerleaders and also our personal critics if the need arises.

The singer and songwriter Woody Allen once wrote in his lyrics, "I get by with a little help from my friends". The way i see it, he sums things up beautifully. A life without friends would be lonely and sad one to say the least. Friends are like a ray of sunlight in the gloom of today's fast-paced, individualistic world. Consequently, we must reassure the friends we have, for true friendship is rare. What would life without friends be like? I, for one, would never like to find out.

My first time stumbling on a quiz that says EXACTLY as i am.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Another Shot Of Talentime

DENNIS CHUA

Yasmin Ahmad’s Talentime is re-screened in honour of her contributions to the local film industry. DENNIS CHUA writes.

THE late Yasmin Ahmad’s last cinematic effort, Talentime, is set to hit cinemas again today.

Primeworks Studios and a group of cinema companies are re-screening the film as a tribute to the award-winning film-maker whose films best encapsulate the spirit of 1Malaysia.

The screening will be held in various cinemas around the country, and Primeworks and the cinema operators have pledged to donate RM1 for every movie ticket sold.

Mahesh Kishor (left) and Pamela Chong in a scene from Talentime.

They are hoping to give fans who missed the film an opportunity to catch it and do their part to help society and the less fortunate.

Media Prima Berhad group chief executive officer for Television Networks Datuk Seri Farid Ridzuan said: “Yasmin was an icon of our film industry who will be sorely missed, and this is our way of honouring her memory and allowing viewers to enjoy her work on the big screen.

Talentime, which was released nationwide earlier this year, follows a group of students and teachers as they prepare for a talent contest in a school.

Through the course of rehearsals and preparations, tragedy and emotions blend together and raise questions of faith, race, love and life.

The film will be screened in the following cinemas:
l GSC Mid Valley Megamall (Kuala Lumpur), Queensbay Mall (Bayan Baru, Penang), Sunway Carnival (Prai), Dataran Pahlawan (Malacca) and Alamanda (Putrajaya);

l TGV KLCC (Kuala Lumpur), Bukit Tinggi (Klang), Bukit Raja (Klang), Tebrau City (Johor Baru), Cheras Selatan (Kuala Lumpur) and 1Utama (Petaling Jaya);

l MBO Ampang, Batu Pahat Mall, Kluang and Skudai;
l Independent cinemas Growball (Kota Kinabalu), The Mall (Bandar Seri Begawan), Lotus 5 Star (Taiping), Teruntum (Kuantan) and Riverside (Kuching).

For details, call 019-273-0963.

Hear the music before its over.

Have you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down, dont dance so fast
Time is short the music wont last.

Do you run through each day on the fly
When you ask "How are you?" do you hear a reply?
When the day is done do you lie on your bed
With the next hundred chores running through your head?
You'd better slow down dont dance so fast
Time is short the music wont last.

Ever told you child we'll do it tomorrow
and in your haste not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch let a good friendship die
'Cause you never had time to call and say Hi?'
Dont dance so fast
Time is short the music wont last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there
When you worry and hurry through your day,
Its like an unopened gift thrown away
Life is not a race. Do take it slower.
Hear the music before your song is over.

Infatuation that was never meant to be true

Sorry i cant really upload much photos:/ this computer is seriously fucking slow. Im trying my very best aight. Heh. So anyways, today in school got suis terbakar. And boring ceramah by a La Salle teacher. But she IS a nice teacher lah. Just that the talk was a lil boring. But she can tell nice stories:D Haha.

So nothing much happened la today. Got period cramps. Wasn't a nasty one but still it hurt:( Tomorrow there'll be more talks and talks and talks and at night i'll be having piano replacements!

Sat would be a busy busy day! Haha. And just now after tuition joy me and shazz were singing along to the song me and joy made. And it was sorta a sad moment for 1 sec there. Haha. I used to remember how i asked him what are you afraid of? And he'd be like "losing you". Damn. It still gets me now. Sigh.

Well that was the good old times. An infatuation that was never meant to be true

17 here i come

Click here to watch the video of the awesome 5 pure science people!

So lots has happened and yet i had no time to update! I'm so sorry. Well first off, last week my class had exchange students from Japan. And we also had the perlantikan pengawas ceremony. Then on saturday was my birthday party! It was the awesome shit ever! Thank you so much for coming you guys:) Yesterday was Michelle's party. And no i didn't go. They all prasan kena invite burh. HAHA. Whatever lah. IF they think they are then they are lah. Only said it for the sake cause she said to me too. But i didnt give them any invitation card. And i didnt said that to them. Someone else did, so i dunno if that's counted? Today is her birthday. She offereed me a cake. Twice. So i just take lah. I've learned to be brave to not invite people who aren't excatly whom i can call a friend already!:) Despite the fact we've always hung out together even though we know that it really isn't what we enjoy doing. AHHA. Its complicated. But whatever. I found my loves! And it just took me a while to realize that turn. Haha.

So those were the few snaps from my party. And there'll be more soon if this stupid computer doesnt keeps lagging. I'm going to buy a new camera and needs to make up my mind. Off to a private party or All Saints Installation. What would you pick?

Even as we grive.

Cover Story: Even as we grieve...

2009/07/28

FATIMAH ABU BAKAR

Yasmin Ahmad — daughter, wife, sister, aunt, friend, mentor, mother, human being. FATIMAH ABU BAKAR celebrates her spirit and her magic.

The writer (left) with Yasmin. — Picture courtesy of Suhaimi Sulaiman.

YASMIN Ahmad came into our lives with a phone call. “Assalamualaikum, my name is Yasmin Ahmad and I’m working on a film. Would you allow your daughter to be in it?”

Of course, we knew that name was responsible for the incredibly clever and touching commercials she had directed.

I don’t remember actually looking forward to commercials before Yasmin Ahmad. And, Rabun, her first movie which immortalised her parents Mak Inom and Pak Atan.

But that phone call, which led to Sepet and then Gubra, Mukhsin, Muallaf and Talentime, brought her to a permanent place in our hearts.

Later, “your daughter” would become “our daughter” and my other three girls would also be fortunate enough to earn roles in her films.

Yasmin with Sharifah Aryana (left) and Mohd Syafie during the filming of Mukhsin.

She would be Kak Min and Mak to them as she was to so many other people she had touched.

That was one magic of Yasmin Ahmad - that she could be friend, mentor and mother to so many and yet make each and every one feel special and loved.

It is hard to write this, as we try to come to terms with the fact that no more would we hear, watch and feel her stories.

Our daughter is devastated that her “talian hayat” had been so abruptly cut.

Yet even as we grieve, I tell them it must be so much harder for her beloved husband, daddy Yew Leong, her own mak and abah and their families on both sides.

Come to think of it, they know she’s very much with us. She resides in all her works, be they the commercials about our dream Malaysia, or her movies which have moved filmgoers worldwide.

Celebrate her spirit, I tell them. Keep her alive by continuing what she started. You will never lose her that way. Yes, she had always said she made her films for her parents and if others liked them too, that would be an added bonus.

But because she was admittedly an incurable romantic and a genius storyteller, her stories became our stories as we all discovered little bits of ourselves in them.

For some, we would recognise huge chunks. Uncanny, but many times it seemed as if we looking at ourselves in a mirror.

Be brave like her too, I tell them. Our daughter especially remember the difficult periods in Mak’s life when it seemed people were determined to break her down because they couldn’t or didn’t want to understand the issues she dealt with in her films.

I had no answers when they asked what was so difficult for people not to understand?

And how could so many be so cruel to a storyteller who told simple tales of love?

What were poignant, lyrical, fresh and funny were oftentimes viewed as offensive to some. And because the girls got too close to the fire, they too were badly singed.

But what was important was that they saw that Mak refused to be beaten.

In her own dignified defiance, driven by her need to share her stories about humanity, love, frailty, hope, compassion, honesty and forgiveness, they saw how she continued to make us see ourselves.

That really what she was unveiling were more huge mirrors and that it was all right to laugh, cry, lament, despair and just be hopelessly human. That it was okay to be different as long as there was mutual respect. It was never more evident they realised at her final farewell.

Being great fans of Mak’s works, the girls are grateful they got to be for a while Mak’s Orked, Mak Inom, Ani and Ana. They are proud to be part of Mak’s magic of making the ordinary extraordinary.

Our daughter, who had been too busy to check her emails, did so this evening.

There was one from Mak. She had attached two pictures she titled her “brave beautiful baby”. They were of our daughter in her bald and wounded glory shot during the filming of Muallaf.

How do you quantify grief?

Dear Min, like all your children, my girls are probably wishing they had loved you less. They miss you terribly. That void in their hearts I cannot fill and won’t even try. But they too believe, corny and sappy as people would have it sound, that truly love conquers all.

They will have to find comfort in the verses you so carefully selected from your favourite book — the al-Quran — for all your films.

Especially that in Muallaf which says, “He will never put upon you any burden too heavy to bear.”

I am glad you also reinforced the idea that it is more than all right, if not imperative, that we read the other Books too.

Read them with your heart. Only then will you understand and not fear.

You have always credited Allah for your successes. You were a mere conduit, you said. We too thank Allah for bringing you into our lives. And we know all who love you, especially all your children, echo that.

To them, the other labels didn’t matter too much. Most important was you were Mak. Crazy, cool, temperamental, clever, hard-driving, manic, inspirational Mak.

And just like your mum’s, your love too was unconditional. Your eyes and heart seldom let you down. That’s how you found them — all your babies. That was your gift. And undoubtedly your greatest legacy.

Al-Fatihah, my love.

• The writer is the former editor of Life & Times and now an acting coach who’s worked with Akademi Fantasia contestants and trained actors in numerous films including Layar Lara, Embun, Ringgit Kasorrga, 1957: Hati Malaya, Sara, Anak, Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam, Sayang You Can Dance and Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa. Her four daughters — Sharifah Aleya, Sharifah Amani, Sharifah Aleysha and Sharifah Aryana — have all acted in Yasmin’s films.

Yasmin, with the cast of Talentime, was friend, mentor and mother to so many and made every one of them feel special and loved.

Love And Time

During TT bazaar.

Something i'd like to share. Thanks to hazel!(: And btw, this thursday's prefect's installation day and tomorrow got extra co-cum:( Sad. I just fucking realized SPM is nearer. Shit.

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

The most functional english word.

Well it's shit. That's right. Shit.

Shit may just be the most functional word in the English Language. With a little effort, you can get your shit together, find a place for your shit, or be asked to shit or get off the pot.

You can smoke shit, buy shit, sell shit, lose shit, find shit, forget shit, and tell others to eat shit and die.

Some people know their shit, while others can't tell the difference.

You can find yourself in deep shit or be happier than a pig in shit.

Some music sounds like shit, things can look like shit, and there are times when you feel like shit.

You can have too much shit, not enough shit, the right shit, the wrong shit or a lot of weird shit.

And remember, once you know your shit, you don't need to know anything else!!

You could pass this along, if you give a shit, or not do so if you don't give a shit!!

Well, shit, it's time for me to go. Just wanted you to know that I do give a shit and hope you had a nice day, without a bunch of shit.

But, if you happened to catch a load of shit from some shit head...
Well, Shit Happens!!!

Skipped school again.

So last Friday was the chemistry quiz. Had tuition after school, after tuition went to Sweet Daily (seems to be my after-friday-tuition-routine) and get myself a whole cake of RARE CHEESEEE! Yum yum. Then i went to karamunsing and blabla. Nothing much after that. Saturday arrived and had the fever attack again. Went to have dim sum at promenade and after that went to piano. After piano, add maths and then bm tuition.

Hazwan joined us last sat. He just started off:) So i'll be seeing him twice a week now. HAHA. 7K was last Sat. Everybody asked Nina about why wasn't i there. Sakit bah. And with lots of people around, i'd probably get more sick. Heh. So that night, before fetching my lil siblings from Marina's lobby i went to clinic. I've been sleeping early everyday now:)

HAHA.


So sunday comes, went to TT bazaar. Met up with Lalitha and Annabelle! My 2 favourite people! Bought Eva's roses as promised (: and also the japanese light cheese cake. It's delicious. Didn't stayed long cause it was super duper hot. After that i went home and brought mummy and nina to the saloon! We had our daughter-mother-getting-our-hair-done-time together. Haha. Spent 4 hours in the saloon. And teh weather was just massive that time.

I skipped school today was because my shoes are wet. Yes i know. Brilliant excuse eh? Besides i haven't sew the blanket for the poor kids in conjunction with the vocasional week we'll be having. Off i go to look up my facebook. It's been a while(: My laptop's still down. The hard disk rosak. So everything inside is GONEEEE! Yes the horror. I shed a tear on that. But what to doooooo? I'll probably have my lappy back next week. Cause need to wait for the order thingy from KL lagi.

Besides all that, i won't be going online that often anyways. But i'll try whenever i'm free:) So don't be suprised if my facebook nor blog isn't update for quite a long time and you dont see me online in your msn list.

Au Revoir.

Update

I haven't been updating that's cause first of all, my laptop's down. 2nd is that i'm kinda restricted to go online 'dah. Heh. Well lots has happened lately in my life. Too bad i couldn't update it here.

I'm sick. Well getting better sudah lah. Since day before yesterday. Or was it yesterday. I've just finish my monthly test and i think i screw up today's paper. Was having a slight fever and it was add maths and chemistry. Tomorrow chemistry quiz some more. And i made my specks! Heh. I've always had my degree but i never like wearing them.

Luqman's mad at me again for swapping to my digi sim card while he was still in school because according to him, he wants me to be the first person he sms to when he gets home. Asshole. Like i care. Everything just has to be his way oh kan?

What else? Uhm. Nothing much lah. Just that i guess. I dunno. Can't seem to remember what has happened now. Heh. Au revoir.

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

I wanna go buy that book

If we discovered that we had only five minutes left to say all that we wanted to say, every telephone booth would be occupied by people calling other people to stammer that they loved the.

That is true. So today was struggling with the absence of electricity. Nothing much happened lah. I read blogs and went on youtube. That's all. Facebook is jam. I cant enter. I'll just check tomorrow la.

Some boys take a beautiful girl
Only to hide her away from the rest of the world
Not me, I want to be the one in the sun

Today was a good day:)

A-nnoying
N-ice
N-onsense(full of)

A-nnoying
N-Nice
N-o-nonsense
A-mbitious
C-reative
L-ame
A-wesome
R-esponsible
E-mbarrassing

C-ute
H-umble
O-rang gila
N-onsense(full of)
G-ay

C-hildish
H-ot
R-esponsible
I-nteresting
S-ex-maniac
T-alkative
I-ntelligent
N-o-nonsense
E-nvious

D-aring
E-nvious
B-uuuudu
R-ebellious
A-wesome

I-nnocent
R-esponsible
I-mmature
S-weet

I-nteresting
V-ain
A-ttractive

J-ealous
E-mbarrassing
S-ot
H-yper
W-asteful
I-mmature
N-aughty
A-nnoying

M-ischevious
I-mmature
C-razy
H-ilarious
E-mbarrassing
L-ovable
L-ame
E-nvious

M-essy
O-rang gila
H-ilarious
A-nnoying
N-aughty
A-wesome

S-ot
A-nnoying
R-ebellious
A-wesome
H-ilarious

Something the girls came up with during physics. Had lots of fun today. Pictures will be up in facebook. I wont upload all but i will eventually;) Today was a good day. Its raining now and yeah. Its a good day. The most productive picture day and also ping pong day. Tomorrow, i would be bringing my camera again to school:)

One of the videos i've promised to upload:)

Sweet Daily

Picture source; Marion.

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Its been all over. National service! Thank god i wasn't chose. Christine is! Luqman is! Heh. I checked it last night through sms. And i check again online. Anyways, after school i went to Sweet Daily. It is very sweet indeed! Haha. The boss was nice(: So yeah. Just wanted to update about that. And my cousin Muzammel got it too! The site's so jam. Sigh. OH OH! And i brought 20 cents today to call mummy what time i finish and as i wanted to put it in the coins hole in the public phone it flew out of my hand and "plop" into the drain near me. HAHA. The sound effect was funny so yeah.

Tuesday was it?

I curi curi update again. Heh. Whatever. I cannot tahan. I just need to say this out. Everything was just so well till just now at night. After daddy picked me up. BLEH! And guess what, i dont think i can go to deb's party at the beach this sat nor all saints bazaar next sat nor 7k next next sat. i dunnola. ugh. Fuck man.

That felt a lil better.

Fuck

I curi curi update again. Heh. Whatever. I cannot tahan. I just need to say this out. Everything was just so well till just now at night. After daddy picked me up. BLEH! And guess what, i dont think i can go to deb's party at the beach this sat nor all saints bazaar next sat nor 7k next next sat. i dunnola. ugh. Fuck man.

That felt a lil better.

Away

I can't go online anymore. Restricted to only weekends:( so i'll update tru my phone and l8r on will update on sundays. Sigh. It feels so far away from the laptop ald. Or! I'll just go online before sleep? Or.. I dunno. Let's just see how thing goes. Anyways, i killed a cockroach just now in tuition. Using chong's book and ged screamed. Hahaha. It was so fucking funny. Had to hold in the laughter. Everyone else was laughin too(: anyways, i'm eating koko krunch now. Gotta go. Bye.

Monday Blues

I have put up pictures from my trip to lahad datu and also finished uploading IUDay pictures. Like finally! Haih. Banyak mau buat oh. Mau tag people lagi. Im kinda lazy to do that now. Plus the connections kinda slow. I'll just do that laters. Or anybody wanna help?:) I'd appreciate that alot! HAHA. Anyways, i'll be uploading pictures from Bella's party and the hung out with Farah soon! Videos will be here in my blog though. Honestly, i kinda felt weird putting up all the Lahad Datu Pictures. I dunno why. Haha. Oh wells. So today nothing much happened. I'm gonna play for fokker for this sports carnival next week. Hockey baby. Hahaha. Ntah lah kalau boleh ka tidak. At least am gonna have fun. Anyways, gotta go add maths tuition now. Later!

Saturday at The Tambakaus And Sunday With Hakim.

Had a blast last night. Yesterday was one hectic day for me but nevertheless i had fun:) It started off with waking up in the morning, showered, get into my uniform and went to ryan's school to get his report card. then to my school and i thought we'd start with my class but no went to my sister's class first. Then while waiting for my mom, talked to leon and my lil bro ryan:) after that went to my class. chyna was there. with fiona and ameera too! and ameera's mom, chyna's dad, mr saw (our physics teacher), melissa and christine and sherine and our class teacher. Hehe. See! I remember!:)

So yeah. My results was baaaaad. Its the same level as how much i've put effort into this exam. Honestly, i didn't study bah. Everyday stayed up till 2am chattin with him. HAHAHA. Now? Teda guna juga. But at least, that brought me to here la:) I now know where i stand.

So went to have breakfast after that. Soto to be exact. Then off to piano. By 12, went to lintas to find present. Couldn't find anything nice, went to YoYo. I think i saw carol. Ex all saints tu. Kawan si Bhell. Then i went home, eat and off to tuition. After tuition, went home and quickly dressed up and went warisan to get the present!:)

Arrived late at the party. But it was soo fun lah! Ika and Bells welcomed us. It was awkward at first but in the end of the day, i made friends!:) With Johari and Kenneth Lo. Haha. And was there till 10.30 Lorraine was there too! And sara. And sheena. Heh. Watched horror movies, had take out pizza and was basically having the time of our life, since her mom wasn't home too! Pictures will be up at facebook;) but not now dearies, my connection not so good. Hehe.


Then went home and that was it lah. Reached home around near 11. So this morning, i woke up early around 7? And watered the plants:D Finished around 8.30, showered and had breakfast. Did house chores and played uno cards with my adiks. By then it was 12. Had lunch and prepared to go out ald. It was raining then so we cancelled our destination to the beach. Instead we went 1B:) Played at booboo land and went around in 1B. Was totally teda haluan cause one wanted to go Kbox, the other wanted to eat, the other wanted to play games and our time's so limited cause all of a sudden, daddy gave me a curfew! Dari yesterday lagi tu. He never said 10.30 was late. And 6??? Its not late at all! Ive been home near 9! I think its the report card day effect and the whole spm is near issue. Sigh. So yeah. I've got videos too! I'll upload it later kays? My connection not so good kan now. Goodnight! Im off to text my prince charming and homework. :)

Its never easy but its never impossible neither

It was certainly a memorable experience travelling alone with your little sister. Especially if she's excited about it. Haha. Nina was basically singing the whole 45 mins on the plane! Michael Jackson died. I got the jabbed yesterday and had tuition just now. More homework and less time going shopping:( Less time online-ing:( Less time watching movies and hanging out with friends:( Note to self, you can do it Iva. Its just gonna be a few more months. And then you'll be free. The books would be a waste of if you dont do it, mummy and daddy's money down the drain. Mummy's hope and dreams for you would be shattered. And everything will turn out so sad. I need to do the right thing. And i must do the right thing.

That is to sacrifice. To do the right thing is never easy but its never impossible neither.

From Yoyo to EasyWay

The videos that was long overdue.
It was during my cousins visit to KK during the recent holidays.
We basically spent time from 10 til 1. It was such a short period but we had lots of fun!:)

Anyways, i hung out with Farhan today and made new friends from his group of friends. They're nice lots. Joy and shazzny tagged along after tuition. Dayana's mom dropped us off. Besides that, we all slept in class today. There was no teacher and the breeze was nice. I slept for an hour or so? Lets see what else? Christine gave me a poem today. I'll scan it up later on to show it to you guys. She even glued a butterfly on it! How sweet. Tomorrow i would be having tuition at night and would be having lunch at little italy with my aunt and cousin who's going to iowa for 3 months. She's from there. So yeah. Saturday would be report card day and would be having double lessons of piano class for replacement. Afternoon would be tuition and night would be PARTY! Sunday would be going out with Farah and Luqman in the afternoon. We're probably gonna hang out at the beach or something. Next Sat would be Deb's pary and next next Sat would be All Saint's bazaar. The following week after that would be test. Damn man. Hrm what else ah? Oh yeah! Today's Grandpa's birthday! How could i forget? He's sweet 79 today. Haha. I wanna drive his old vintage Ford again! And i wanna go driving again this sunday! I hope its possible:) I better get going now. Need to sleep early. I need a fresh mind in the morning. Goodnight! Oh yeah p/s tomorrow drama competition! And sat would be choir competition. Good luck to those who are involved!

Believe me this time.

Chuck: I was a coward running away again. But everywhere I went, you caught up with me. So I had to come back.
Blair: I want to believe you, but I can't. You've hurt me too many times.
Chuck: Then believe me this time.
Blair: That's it?
Chuck: [pauses] I love you, too.
Blair: Can you say it twice? (laughs) No, I'm serious, say it twice.
Chuck: I love you, I love you, I love you. (kissing)

Saya sayang cewek saya.

I just love my girls. Waiting for my mom just now and christine suddenly told me that its been a while we havent did sound therapy. Im like "huh?" sound therapy? and then she couldnt believe i forgot! So they gave me a sound therapy which lasted for approx 15 seconds? Whoever wanna get a sound therapy you can call 1800-meet-my-friends. :) We've been friends ever since highschool started! And we all went through alot together.

I came home 12.20 today because teacher had meeting and there was no studies going on. Went online and chatted with adzwan, farhan, kelvin, ikhwan and a few others. Not all in one time of course. Checked my facebook and i had to approve 71 friend requests. If i'm not going out with farah this weekend, i wanna go out with my girls! I miss going out with them. It has always been with luqman luqman luqman and more luqman. BORING. Hah.

So yeah having physics tuition in a bit. And joey's coming here next month! Yay! I dunno what else to update. Heh. Later la again. See ya.

When most i wink, then do mine eyes best see,
For all the day they view things unrespected,
But when i sleep, in dream they look on thee,
And darkly bright are bright in dark directed,
Then thou whose shadow shadows doth make bright,
How would thy shadow's form form happy show
To the clear day with thy much clearer light
When to unseeing eyes thy shade shines so!
How would i say mine eyes be blessed made
By looking on thee in the living day,
When in dead night thy fair imperfect shade
Through heavy sleep on slightless eyes doth stay!
All days are nigths to see till i see thee,
And nights bright days when dreams to show thee me.

Did i hear you say random?

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Mirabelle Fabia 1 week ago today,my phone got stolen....haih..hahaha
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Luqman Hakim at 4:45pm June 21
tdk pandai jaga rite!

Mirabelle Fabia at 4:46pm June 21
not my slh ok..

Luqman Hakim at 4:46pm June 21
x wanna brin d bag 2gether wit u cuz u think nt nice n nt cool..

Luqman Hakim at 4:46pm June 21
u SALAH!!!! hahaha

Mirabelle Fabia at 4:47pm June 21
babi..mmg la..

Mirabelle Fabia at 4:47pm June 21
who wud wanna look lame--like u..hahahaahaha!!!

Luqman Hakim at 4:47pm June 21
see???????? it is mmg u yg SALAH!!!

Luqman Hakim at 4:48pm June 21
noooooo... look handsome,hot,sexy when i was carryin iva's bag....hahahaha

Mirabelle Fabia at 4:49pm June 21
tsk....ish...kin panas la u..

Luqman Hakim at 4:49pm June 21
if panas? go on ur air cond.

Mirabelle Fabia at 4:49pm June 21
go celebrate Father's Day la u.....

Mirabelle Fabia at 4:51pm June 21
my air cond mmg on laaaaa=.=

Luqman Hakim at 4:53pm June 21
u eh??? u x celebrate???

Mirabelle Fabia at 4:54pm June 21
sdh..mkn dim sum kat sutra..x sedap pun...foo ping better,hahaha..u?

Luqman Hakim at 5:01pm June 21
tonite i think..

Luqman Hakim at 5:01pm June 21
why u always dim sum only????

Mirabelle Fabia at 5:03pm June 21
manada always...n cuz i like 2 mkn babi...hahahahaha

Mirabelle Fabia at 5:03pm June 21
where la u go?

Luqman Hakim at 2:57pm June 22
makan babiiiiiiiiiiii only

Iva Aishah at 12:23am June 23
crazy ppl. cannot stop fighting punya ppl. haiyaaaaaaaa. susah susah.
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Monday Blues Is Just The Right Title.

If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don’t, their love was never yours to begin with.

So monday monday monday. Not my favourite day of the week! Got the video from Joy(: Am gonna post it up later. So, the family gathering pictures as promised! And had interact meeting just now. Just between us board of directors. And we're gonna celebrate Deb's birthday next week! Picnic! I'm not sure if Luqman's tagging along. Thats up to him. If he doesn't tag along then i'll be having my only girlfriends time that time! Yay. We'll be snapping pictures like crazy and hitting la push beach baby! Haha. Padahal tanjung aru ja. And and this saturday report card day. Shit man. I think i'll be dead. I'll also be spending time with Farah this sunday cause she'll be going back to UITM in continueing with her degree in law next week!

What else happened today? I brought sweet cupcakes to school! And yet i was craving for nasi lemak. Haha. I did house chores in the afternoon, a lil bit of homework and watched tv! What else did i do today? I couldn't concentrate in class during Add maths period. Was fucking sleepy. It was 11 plus. I dunno why i'm always sleepy that time. Weirdo kan me? Then masa chemistry teacher was teaching thermochemistry, masa tu juga lah choir went on singing. Mahu jadi crazy lah!

What else? As usual had fun with christine and chong and michelle and laughed alot and talked alot and blablabla. Suprisingly this morning i woke up, my left side of my body, YES, just the left was aching! Hello? Is that even possible? Macam paralysed ja. HAHA.

And then uhmmm what else? Luqman just called. Stupid bloody idiot. He dont want me to go to Debra's party. I was an idiot too for starting that conversation. Fuck him. UGH. How can he fucking compare that girl and that guy? Shit punya bitch. And he kept saying i don't care kan? Fine! I show you lah. Yang i really dont care. Stupid. Ugh. I think i wanna go do my physics and then sleep. Hope he gets struck by a lightning in the middle of his sleep or fall down the stairs on the way to school or something. That stupid idiotic guy. UGH.